what do you call a feeling that no longer lives in your body?

he says i know that we’ve been fighting but you should know that i;m still proud. he asks why i passed out on the couch and i say fuck so fucking loud. but i have no answer. so i walk away. and i think i’ll wake up and tmorrow will be just another stupid day. before you;ll wake me up before i;m ready , and i’ll scream at you slow and steady. everytime the car comes to take me away. i stare out the window and pray you dont think of 1 million reasons why you shouldn;t have stayed.